Irony is lost on those it is most intended for...Allison F. Hamilton 1990
Driving home today I was wondering about my abilities as a Designer. I am not the type of artist who can sit at a blank canvas and just create. I have always been more of the "borrow and improvise" type of artist. I need direction. I need an idea of where something is going. I wondered as I drove and pondered my latest job interview (via phone 10 minutes earlier) if this is one of the reasons I am so self concious about my ability.
I started to think that my life has been one blank canvas and I can not seem to get it right. I've tried the "borrow and improvise" from friends, family, pop culture. No luck. I still end up with a blank me. I wonder if I was able to create a truely beautiful piece of art if I'd stop feeling this way...Probably not.
The only art I seem to be able to "originate" is sculpture and I never have the time for it. Not that I do anything grandiose there either I'm good at making a fake pie crust, peas in a pod, ears of corn, little mexican men in sombaros (ask my FIL), but again nothing earth shattering, nothing noteworthy.
Maybe my life is meant to be the blank canvas maybe we all are the blank canvas and I just haven't found my muse.
Okay now that I am depressed and over analyzed I'm going to have a tomato sandwich and watch a DVD.
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